MY TESTIMONY

I want in this testimony to share my experience from the gaze of Love in my path, and not, to write an autobiography. I am one of the 8,000,000,000 million itinerant people in this blue planet, the tiny point in the monumental Universe in which each human being has a particular story to tell, is unique, is an unrepeatable mold of high dignity, and therefore of deep respect.

I will begin by saying that I HAVE FEELED THE PRESENCE OF GOD IN MY LIFE AND ITS LOOK SINCE ALWAYS. Although I walked away from Him and as Saint Augustine says: "LATE I LOVED YOU MY GOD". From his hand sufferings do not cause suffering, the burdens are softer, that is why suffering has not brought me down with its weight. The past does not torment and the future does not worry, God sustains and only with Him is serenity and security of life, joy, hope and happiness achieved despite the sorrows.

During my spiritual journey, I have linked with some movements of the Catholic Church. For example, in the Cursillos de Cristiandad, where I began my encounter with God. I also participated in the Catholic Charismatic Renewal, in a Community in which I made the Seminar of Life in the Spirit. Although I am not linked to the Legion of Mary, I feel close. Because at the suggestion of a Legionary I pray the "Catena" daily since she told me that that would make me Auxiliary of the Legion.

I am learning to love the Queen of Heaven. I am clear that it was not the "Catena", but the goodness of the Mother, and my intention and decision that has brought me closer to her. I was in the Specialized Environmental Apostolate, for several years, where I met a Holy Priest, the Father Miguel Triana Uribe, who was for me and for many of the members of the Movements that he founded, our Spiritual Father. He was a Servant until the last day of his life, and through his groups, for 50 years he shared with different generations, who received the dew of the Word of God, until his departure to the Father's House in 2014.

My encounter with God has been and continues to be a gradual process, in which my best purposes have stumbled from failure to failure, and in which I have seen HIS GREAT MERCY, HIS ETERNAL LOVE, HIS PERFECT PURITY, HIS POWER, HIS BEAUTY , HIS LUMINOSITY, HIS GREATNESS, AND HIS OMNIPOTENCE TO FORGIVE.

We worry about discernment, to search and decipher to know the will of God. In our impatience, we want to pressure him to tell us through one or another means, as well as the day he should do it, but we have to trust him, because he lets us know his Holy Will, however, sometimes we think we have lost hope.

I believe that by the grace of the Lord, the grudges have not been nested in me, that the offenses have slipped me, that I did not have hatreds in my life. So much has this been that on some occasion I was asked why i wasn’t upset, at that moment I did not understand it and today I see that it was the Mercy of God that covered me, because everything comes from Him alone, from us what more sprout is evil.

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There come to my memories many events that have occurred in the history of my life, which I would like to share and of which I will narrate some:

From the memories of my childhood, I have to say that I was very undisciplined, my poor Mother suffered because I always had a bad note in discipline, I talked a lot in the school, but I also liked to talk to the children of the street of God and told them that we made sacrifices to offer, we used to carry a brick and reminded them to always ask forgiveness, then when I grew up I forgot and walked away, but HE NEVER FORGOT ME, and as the prayer of Pope Francis says, I felt: BELOVED, EXPECTED AND FORGIVEN OH MY GOD.

When my Mother was taken without vital signs to the City Hospital where she lived, she remained unconscious and in a state of danger of death, during the journey of my trip to the hospital. I had the certainty in my heart that she would not die, and when I arrived at the Hospital, I closed the doors and I told her alone in the room, that she would not leave yet, and that i knew it for God. She immediately opened her eyes, hurriedly I called the Nurse and the doctor who was treating her at that moment, surprised and admired, attended her and later recovered, and her departure to the House of the Father, occurred many years later, it was towards the year 2007 and by then, the Lord calmly supported me, even though I drove for several hours with my young children, to arrive to the funeral.

It is beautiful to see how God never fails, and in unforeseen circumstances unreasonable things happen, like, for example, on a street in this City I ran to get my car, and when I passed by a boy who was standing on the sidewalk, I stopped untimely and asked: "What's wrong," he replied: "I'm afraid," "why," I said, "because today is my first day of work and I have to take money to a site" , I asked him what he was doing standing there, he answered that he was praying, I said "if you want i can drive you", and it was just near the place where I was going.

On one occasion I went out with several friends to the Botanical Garden of Bogotá "José Celestino Mutis" we sat on a bench to talk, I had a bag and had a lot of money (for me it was at that time), I had to make some important payments because of the acquisition of my house in the first hours of the following day and you could say it was all my capital. At one point for convenience I put the bag on the bench and continued our pleasant talk, then we got up and we continued walking, time went by and suddenly I remembered my bag, I told my friends and I started running, and as I ran I asked to God internally to please help me, that it was his Holy Will if i happened to find it or not, and my friends ran too, one of them quickly came to the place where we were and I saw him walk back to us with a gesture of concern and shaking his head indicating that it was not there, when we arrived we all saw that the bench was empty, the discouragement was felt and we continued walking in silence, an hour or so had passed when we saw an old man , with a face of an honest person, who looked in all directions and came towards us, I shouted "that's my bag" and he replied "I have been traveling for several hours I went to the park to see if the owner appeared, I picked up the bag on a bench and I loaded it from that moment and I do not even know what it contains because I have not opened it. "

God's time is perfect, he loves us as we are, and in spite of our mistakes he listens to us, it is the response of love, justice has a limit, mercy transcends it and is lost on the horizon, so is GOD with us; I remember at the San Pedro Claver Clinic, I was on a commission and I was a month pregnant, I ran without control, recklessly, without remembering my condition or thinking about the consequences that the exercise could have. I did it so that I had enough time, going up and down stairs on foot due to the delay of the elevator, after which logically I had to go to the emergency room on the first floor and they prepared me to perform a curettage, I asked God, that only his Holy Will be fulfilled, but that it was not for my imprudence and foolishness that it happened, suddenly a few minutes later, I felt a great peace in my heart and the certainty that my son would be born. The doctor on duty, was sure that i would go to the surgery room and he asked me, "it was your first child, lady", and I answered him: "It's my first child", my son was born 8 months later. Also the gynecologist who was a foreigner told me that I should take a test to know if the child was normal, which I rejected and I did not consider it at any time (today I see that it was a suggested abortion, but at that moment I did not understand it that way).

"WHEN YOU DO NOT HAVE ANYTHING MORE THAN GOD IS WHEN YOU REALIZE THAT GOD IS ALL YOU NEED" I have seen and felt the love of God also the day my son was born, it was a holiday, for multiple reasons I was left alone in the house, with a phone that could not dial all the numbers, since 2 keys did not work, and also i didnt have money. The contractions began, I thought that lunch had made me feel a little bad, I turned on the Paschal Candle, I made a brief prayer, I turned it off and I remained calm, without fears, without thinking about anything, and with peace in my heart. Suddenly I called a friend I met in the Community, asking if she could come over to say hello and when she arrived, I told her what happened, then she said that we should leave for the Clinic. When we arrived at the Hospital Center I told the doctor what had happened, but clarifying that everything was scheduled, by a certain date, that the birth would be later, that there would be several people and my family from Huila would come, but he replied: " What a shame Madam but we can not allow you to go "and that night my son was born, at 0.25 minutes from May 24, it was when I realized that" to have a child is to suddenly find yourself with a little bit of God in your hands "As the Huilense poet Silvia Lorenzo says; I had epidural anesthesia, so well placed in the epidural space, that the delivery went very well, I had no physical pain and my son arrived in perfect condition; This is the only time I have been hospitalized since i can remebered.

God sends us his help through different people, which sometimes we would not even imagine, so I would like to tell you about another case; i was with my baby son one day in a Volkswagen car that i had . I would bring him back in the car seat, i had left work around 6:00 p.m., going up the bridge that was known as "de la 92", which today is the one connects to the highway, I got a flat tire; the day before in the workshop they had asked me for the favor of a change of a wheel, and to help them I left the tire, I went without it and without a spare tire, when I stopped, someone hit me in the window, It was an inhabitant of the street, and he asked me if i needed help. I told him about the situation, and he told me that another Homeless person who was under the bridge could take care of the baby, smiling I answered no, but I let him dismantle the tire, i gave him money, and told him to not fail me and that I would wait for him; some street vendors watched worriedly, and followed him to try to keep an eye on him, but they were approached by some Clients and they went to work, afterwards it was not known any more about him or the course he took, but he returned with the tire, He handed me the money and he put the tire on. It was an Angel that God sent me to solve the problem.

God was also with me when my daughter arrived, the circumstances were unfavorable for the adoption, and the only apparently viable way, according to someone, was lying. But by God's grace it was not done and in the process everything went well and according to the law, after the birth of my son, this was the second time of great happiness, in which I remembered again the phrase of the Poetisa Silvia Lorenzo.

I SEE GOD IN THE EVERYDAY OF MY LIFE, AND THEY ARE EXTRAORDINARY THINGS, IN ADDITION THERE IS NO LONELINESS, GOD LETS US FEEL HIS PRESENCE EVERY DAY, IN WHAT WE SEE AND ALSO IN THE HEART.

In the Divine will, the unexpected happens to us, in another anecdote, I attended a bingo in Unicentro. I went with my 2 children but they did not allow them to enter the Casino, there were some gaming machines outside and I left them for a moment, and inside I was waiting for a friend who did not know anyone and that's why I entered. The Bingo started and I asked God that my friend would be the one to win, but looking at my cardboard I saw that I was going to win the third prize, and I actually shouted "Bingo" and won it, I went back to ask the Lord for her, but again I screamed " Bingo "and I won the second prize , I made my last sentence for her to win but finally I also got the top prize. Several of the Assistants rose from their chairs surprised and admired, because a single person had taken all the prizes, shortly after I left the Casino and at the door was someone selling Lottery and my children told me "Mami look", is the number of the plate of our car, I did not buy it because I knew that I had won not by luck, but by the will of God; many years later I mentioned to Father Miguelito what happened in a lunch during a Retreat and later in the Eucharist the Father mentioned that a Lady had prayed for someone to win a prize, but through the intercession of the Virgin, she had won it herself, I understood then what had happened.

I also want to tell you that at some time during vacation we traveled with my young children to Girardot, we were in the pool and a child brought a surfboard that is for the sea and threw himself into the pool, I did not react to the danger and way of prevention when my son asked him to lend it. I positioned myself in front of the pool and positioned my arms as if to prevent someone from getting injured, suddenly I felt such a strong impact on my face that I almost lost consciousness, it was a matter of seconds, and I felt as if my eye had gone out, so I told the children, and with my hand I would have returned it to its place, that was the feeling, everything was so fast that I was not aware of what happened, nor of reality. Immediately my eyelid darkened and began to swell, and to close, the three of us ran to the house and we began to pray all the time and at the same time we put ice on my face, the pressure of a blow can trigger the uncontrolled exit of blood in the eye, but the eye did not bleed, we stayed like this until almost midnight, my children cried and the pet barked, the next day we had to return to the City and had to drive and so thank God we could do it; the eye was opened again and the intensity of the color by the blow faded quite a lot, and when I went to the doctor, the Ophthalmologist who examined me told me "the blow was too strong, that i could have lost the eye," I replied " we prayed and we applied ice on the face ", he thought and replied" it was the best thing you could have done, I congratulate you because the handling was very good ".

In spite of the frequency of our imprudence, the mercy of the Lord sustains us, it comes to my memory when we visited the United States, for the first time with my 2 children who were minors, I rented a car and toured Florida from Orlando and we arrived to Atlanta Georgia, thank God we did not have any kind of accident, my children were the ones who guided, and were attentive to the details of luggage, size and weight allowed, itineraries, and routes, everything turned out very well and we enjoyed the trip quite a lot.

On March 18, 2015, it was the departure of my brother, it was a Wednesday just started the afternoon, when I received the news by cell phone, then the Lord gave me the calm and tranquility I needed.

God's time is perfect, it illuminates and guides the hours that mark our clock; I commented that by the end of 2015, we had planned to travel with a family to Miami, it was defined, we bought the tickets, but on the date, the family told us that they had canceled the trip for different reasons, and I stayed with my 2 young children in a high season, when the prices in hotels tripled, the quotas are depleted, additionally, with a fine of the airline if it postponed the trip for a total value of $ 1,600,000, the exchange rate skyrocketed and also counted with limited resources that were not enough, but once again, in spite of this difficult panorama, the merciful hand of God, organized everything for our good, we arrived at the apartment of a foreigner who gave it to us while she was traveling to her Country in Central America , things happened with the haste that was required and at the right time, she kindly picked us up at the Miami Airport at 3 am and left us at her house, there we enjoyed our stay, we returned in January 2016, after we rented a car we were blessed to be able to visit the Blessed Sacrament daily, and when I arrived at the Church to visit him, he gave me a joy that surpassed my heart and my reason.

IT IS VERY PAINFUL TO SEE AS ​​THOSE WHO THINK AND SAY THAT WE BELIEVE IN GOD, WE OFFEND HIM DAILY:

WHEN WE IGNORE YOU, WHEN WE LEAVE YOU IN THE MORNING TO SPEAK TO YOU, WHEN WE PRESENT YOU OUR REQUESTS AND WE FALL INTO THE TEMPTATION OF TELLING YOU WICH ARE THE SOLUTIONS, WHEN WE DOUBT OF YOUR LOVE, WHEN IN PRAYER WE ASK YOU THINGS AND THEN WE DO NOT RECOGNIZE YOUR ACT IN OUR LIVES, AND WE ARE BLIND BEFORE THE SIGNS OF THE TIMES.

WHEN WE SEE YOU DISTANT, WHEN WE THINK YOU DO NOT LISTEN TO US, WHEN WE ORDER WHAT YOU SHOULD DO IN OUR LIVES, AND HE ALWAYS WANTS TO GIVE US THE BEST AND WE THINK YOU WILL GIVE US SOMETHING BAD.

WHEN WE DO NOT SEE THAT HE IS THE OWNER OF TIME AND WE THINK IT IS LATE OR THAT HE ARRIVES AT THE LAST MOMENT, WE CLOSE TO UNDERSTAND THAT HIS TIME IS PERFECT.

WE ALSO OFFEND HIM, WHEN WE FEEL HIS CONFIDENCE BECAUSE HE IS OUR FATHER, AND WE FORGET HIS GREATNESS, FORGET THAT HE IS GOD, BY NOT GIVING HIM THE DEAL OF DEEP ADORATION AND RESPECT.

AS WE KNOW THAT THE LEAF OF A TREE DOES NOT MOVE WITHOUT THE WILL OF GOD, WE BLAME HIM FOR THE BAD THINGS THAT HAPPEN TO US AND THAT ARE THE PRODUCT OF OUR MISTAKES AND DOUBTS, PRIDE, AND FAILURE OF FAITH.

WHEN WE SEE IT AS AN INSENSIBLE, PUNISHING AND HARD GOD, DENYING WITH HIS ETERNAL MERCY.

WHEN WE QUOTE IT FOR THE ABANDONED, FOR THE SUFFERING, FOR THE INJUSTICE, FOR THE ILLNESSES, FOR THE MISTAKES, FOR THE INEQUALITY IN THE DISTRIBUTION OF THE GOODS, INSTEAD OF REQUESTING FORGIVENESS THAT THIS HAPPENS WITH ITS CREATION.

ALWAYS WISHES THAT WE ARE HAPPY AND RESPECT OUR FREEDOM.

IF WE MAKE THE DECISION TO GO TO GOD, WE CAN FAIL ONE THOUSAND TIMES IN OUR ACTION, BUT HE IN HIS OMNIPOTENCE, WILL NOT TAKE THIS INTO ACCOUNT, AND ONE THOUSAND TIMES HE WILL FORGIVE US, HE WILL WAIT FOR US, HE LOOKS ONLY AT THE HEART'S INTENTION

The disease is a mystery and good health is also, I know it does not depend on an excellent diet, or a healthy routine and exercises, this is important but not essential, from God comes everything thats good, so it is necessary in the face of adversity, asking him to succeed his Holy Will, and that "apparent" evil, will be the greatest good that can happen to us, because ONLY WITH GOD THE EVIL CAN BE CONVERTED INTO GOOD, IT IS THE ONLY WAY, OTHERWISE, OUR PATH WILL BE LIKE A LABYRINTH.

I WANT TO SAY THAT NOT ALL IN THIS WORLD IS ILLNESS, I HAVE TO COUNT, THAT TO THE YEARS I HAVE, I HAVE NOT SUFFERED FROM ILLNESSES OR PHYSICAL PAINS, but I was not aware of it over the years, I was like blind and my blindness , as a child and in my youth I saw it as normal, although I noticed the diseases in people of my age, in minors and in adults; Now I have seen clearly that it is only by Divine will, and it comes to my memory, when as a child, one night I spoke to him from my bed, telling him that I was afraid of physical ailments and that in my life, please, only leave me emotional and psychological sufferings, I know that the prayers of the children, come to the Heavenly Father, and I think that the Good God heard me that night.

From my work life I can say that I worked relatively little time, and I also obtained the benefit of retiring with a special regime.

In the year 2015 in the months of February to June, my pension allowance was suspended due to problems that seemed to be due to the compartibility of it, and i had expenses that could not wait, plus debts, the situation could be chaotic, bankruptcy, of despair, of helplessness, of no exit, but through the Divine intervention, the days passed without major difficulties, the despair was not felt, my daughter was the most anxious about the situation that we lived, but in the uphill course and downhill everything had a Providential outlet.

In personal prayer, it is wonderful to know that God also listens to us in our simplicity, in which no special or abundant words are required, nor that have a refined theological tinge, nor necessarily to be in transcendental moments of concentration. "God is love" and it is a full love, for that reason it is understood why in the Gospel of John, the Evangelist tacitly considers himself the Beloved Disciple.

I finish this Testimony with the first sentence of a song that I like since I heard it: "THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THING THAT HAS HAPPENED IN ME IS TO KNOW YOU" and secondly I take this opportunity to thank God for the miracle of life, with a flower born from my heart.